I don’t know much, I just know my mom’s side of my family is respected back home. We own like 20 something tricycles and 3 jeepneys, and I guess it’s a recognizable name in Olongapo.
To be honest, I’m completely fine with this name. When I found out it was my birth name I was so happy, because for once I felt closer to my mom and her family. (and spending more than 3/4 of my time with them in the Philippines wasn’t bad either.
I guess I’m just one of those people, you know? Trapped. Like a bird in a cage
I tell myself I want to grow up, but it’s like I’m altered in many different areas. Parts of me grow outwards while others are constricted.
A part I don’t know about is love. I can honestly say I’ve been crushing on so many people lately, it’s getting out of hand. I’m losing sight of my ultimate goal; to be happy.
I can’t say I’ve been making the best choices to get there. I often don’t do schoolhomework.
I don’t present myself in the best way either, but why do it anyways if there’s no one to impress?
I know I contradict myself by saying that, but if I did any of that I wouldn’t be me. I’d be like every other boy packing a nice body cute looks. No where near what I will ever be (at least I think).
I DON’T NEED YOU TO BE THE REASON I MESS UP. IF YOU’RE REALLY CONSIDERING BEING THE LEADER OF EVERYTHING I’M PART OF YOU HAVE ANOTHER THING COMING. IF THIS NIGHT WAS THE NIGHT WHERE WE PROVE HOW ‘FOCUSED’ WE ARE THEN I GIVE YOU A PERSONAL RATING OF A ZERO. SUCK A FAT ONE, IT WOULD HELP.